I am peaceful with all my emotions; I love and approve of myself.
Then I went to Ash Wednesday service last night and the liturgy spoke to that very theme. The hymn "Just As I Am" was sung and 3 verses especially stuck with me.
Just as I am, without one plea,
But that thy blood was shed for thee
And that thou bidd'st me come to thee
O Lamb of God I come, I come.
Just as I am, thou wilt receive,
Wilt welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve;
Because thy promise I believe,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
Just as I am; thy love unknown
Has broken every barrier down;
Now to be thine, yea, thine alone,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
But that thy blood was shed for thee
And that thou bidd'st me come to thee
O Lamb of God I come, I come.
Just as I am, thou wilt receive,
Wilt welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve;
Because thy promise I believe,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
Just as I am; thy love unknown
Has broken every barrier down;
Now to be thine, yea, thine alone,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
Here is also the confession that spoke to me:
God of Goodness and Grace, You have made us better than we dare to allow ourselves to be! You have made us to be in perfect communion with you; but we want to have a private space - private even from you! When we look to separate ourselves from you, we will by definition be sinning. Help us to realize that; so that we can repent of the desire to place space between You and us! As we learn about your Love for us, enable us to let You into our lives all the time! Or, more accurately, allow us to see that You are with us always, - even in those places and times where we think we have separated from You! AMEN!
I seek to be in communion with God all the time. I was given the directive to do 4 things:
1. repeat mantra as needed
2. feel all I am feeling and don't suppress it
3. make lists in my journal of the things I like and don't like and make them so
4. treat myself periodically, make an envelope for "A beautiful woman" and put cash in it periodically to treat myself as needed.
I tried really hard today and all I got was a Migraine. Oh well, tomorrow is another day.
1. repeat mantra as needed
2. feel all I am feeling and don't suppress it
3. make lists in my journal of the things I like and don't like and make them so
4. treat myself periodically, make an envelope for "A beautiful woman" and put cash in it periodically to treat myself as needed.
I tried really hard today and all I got was a Migraine. Oh well, tomorrow is another day.
1 comment:
Wendy,
Something I learned about post traumatic syndrome is the acronym "STUG." I learned it from a minister/therapist who deals with depression and religious issues. He said that that people who have post traumatic stress, can have STUG's, "Sudden Traumatic Upsurges of Grief" that can be triggered by something stressful or by something out of the blue that subconsciously relates to how you are feeling and the "STUG" can trigger a sudden depressiom that you have to deal with. I wish I would never have a "STUG" again, and I wish Wendy, who I dearly love, will never have another "STUG>"
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